Why is it that I find a girl I start developing feelings for and everything is going great until we realize our relationship can’t work out, and as hard as I try to make it work the only girls that make time for me are the girls that just want to fuck! I don’t want any more booty calls I want a gf :/ I know it sounds pathetic but damn my life gets better but my love life just gets worse with every improvement. Maybe if I lose my job and car I can find someone? ahah who the fuck care though right? What the fuck can I do?

Shit is kicking my ass! I can’t move without feeling the soreness of my body. But fuck do I need this lol. I hope going to mexico in 2 weeks doesn’t affect my workouts. I’m taking my laptop to have my videos. Just don’t know how people can do this!